I’m trying to make friends with this guy, and he RNR me. Like siriusly(hahaha get it??) I mean it was really mean and stupid and I if he doesn’t actually want to be my friend, he could just say something instead of RNRing me.
See, this is what happened the other day. So it’s the last day of regular English class and I just really want to be his friend, so I go up to him and I ask him to be my friend, and he says yes and everything is good, he laughs a few times and I think I did alright, not like the last time I tried(comment if you want to hear what that whole story was). So then I decide to message him on messenger. All’s good, and then HE RNR’S ME. LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. I am not kidding, this annoys me a lot. I’m making a freaking blog post on this.
This is a deal breaker for me. If anyone DARES rnr me, they best be ready to not be my friend, cause that shit’s messed up. (btw rnr means read not reply)
Anyways, life has been pretty good. Finals week is coming up this week, so yay. The last few hours, however, have not been kind to my soul. I’m in a really down mood, and it’s not because of the dude who rnr me. It’s my depression creeping on in. Gosh, how I hate depression. I just feel really worthless right now, and I’m not really sure what to do. I’m supposed to talk to someone, but they never really know what to say or I don’t know what to say. I wish I had a reason I was depressed. Like I was abused as a child or I’m bullied a lot, but nope, it’s just me with the perfect life, except not so perfect because I am just that great. I mess up everything.
I’m not sure if many people know what depression feels like. It feels like there’s this whole in my chest and it’s sucking everything out of me. All of my emotions, feelings, everything. And there’s this weight, this physical weight on my chest that holds me down. And then there’s the self-doubt and the negative thinking, and it’s like that voice in your head, except with a megaphone preaching to a crowd. About how stupid and idiotic you are. It’s a horrible thing to go through.
Bye for now
xxNaomi